Sunday, January 24, 2010

All At Once Now

I don't feel much like going into a lengthy description of all that I'm feeling right now, but let's just say I have a HUGE case of guilt-itis. Guilt over breast feeding not going the way I thought it would. Guilt over Shandi being neglected and not getting enough attention. Guilt over the amount of energy Mike is putting in with Katelyn when he's doing all of the work with Joel as well. Guilt over not starting "tummy time" with Katelyn yet. Guilt that the house isn't as clean as it should be.

Welcome to motherhood, I suppose.

Snug as a bug in a little pink rug.
























I would love to know what she's thinking so hard about...




















Shandi giving Katelyn a final inspection before we head out to our first doctor's appointment

















The first bath...not an enjoyable experience (but Katelyn loved being in the bath with me the next night!)


















Cuddle time in the glider...my favourite place to be with her :-)

















Is it wrong that I think my daughter looks like Wallace Shawn (from Clueless, A Princess Bride and Toy Story)?

6 comments:

  1. Yay for new pictures!

    And I laughed out loud at the comparison.

    Hang in there. DON'T FEEL GUILTY! Call me if you need to vent. :)

    ReplyDelete
  2. My husband figures our little boy looks like a cross between Alfred Hitchcock, and Darth Vader without his mask on. He's only 2 1/2 months.. I'm sure he'll grow out of it.

    ReplyDelete
  3. She is so cute Jyl! The guilt you are feeling is what we all feel and it's perfectly normal. I still carry guilt with me from time to time - I often wonder when I will not feel some level of guilt!

    ReplyDelete
  4. As my dad would say, "Guilt is a useless feeling." Too bad it's not so easy to let go of, hey?

    Here is my unsolicited advice. Feel free to tell me to shut up or just plain delete my comment.

    1. Breastfeeding = not natural. When you think of it - there are 2 of you who are having to learn what to do.

    If you have the milk and it's something you really want to do I would encourage you to plow through the pain - it does get better even though you feel like it NEVER WILL.

    If you don't have the milk and you don't want to take all the drugs associated with increasing it - let yourself off the hook and just think that to every birth story there are bumps along the way. I had 2 c-sections - not what I'd hoped for and fortunately got lucky with breastfeeding. You have an amazing birth story (albeit a scary after part) and so you should not hold on to any guilt and blame if the breastfeeding isn't working out. Be gentle with yourself, it's all so new.

    2. Re: Shandi, I remember feeling the same way about Molly and then realized if she wasn't puking her guts out which is what she does when she feels nervous and neglected (which she wasn't) then it wasn't as bad as I thought.

    3. As for the Mike situation - well, I clearly don't have the same situation, but you guys sound like you're a pretty solid couple and I'm guessing that he's more than willing to take over so much and he'll let you know when he's worn out.

    4. Tummy Time? Let that one go. Tummy time can literally be her laying on your chest and you guys just lovin' on eachother. That makes it seem WAY more fun and less stressful as to something you HAVE to do.

    5. And the house? Well, if people can't figure out that your babe is more important than a few dust bunnies and crumbs then who needs 'em!

    She is beautiful Jyl. And she looks quite content laying on the blanket Dixie bought her!

    ReplyDelete
  5. Hi Jyl - I am a regular reader of Dixie's blog and had to come over and check out your precious little one - oh my goodness, she is beautiful! The reason why I needed to comment was because I had the biggest case of "guilt-itis" when I had my first, and someone told me when he was 5 months something that lifted a huge weight off me. It's really simple and you may have already heard it, but I thought I'd share it with you. You have never been a Mommy before and Katelyn has never had a mommy - she has no expectations, everything you do is right and anything that is not done she does not miss.
    Enjoy all the baby snuggles - I miss that the most now that we are out of the baby stage.

    ReplyDelete
  6. Oh cute, thanx for sharing these pictures with us !!!! :D She's adorable and you and Mike are gonna be great parents !!

    ReplyDelete