One Month Check-In

Given that it is now the end of January (already?!), I thought I'd do a quick progress report on how I am doing with regards to accomplishing the goals that I set out for myself.

1) "become healthier"... well, as for quitting smoking, I am a matter of a day or two away from totally smoking. I'm down to about six cigarettes a day and I don't even want those six. I only go outside because Shandi has to pee. Champix, people...look into it. Seriously. As for the walking everyday, I started off doing really well with that. And then it got cold. So I stopped. And I'm not even going to get into the whole "no eating after 6:30pm". But each new day is a chance for me to start all over and work on whatever I wasn't happy with the day before.

2) "better my relationship with Colby"...this goal has been through some ups and downs. I had a really great talk with my sister today and I realized there is more soul searching that needs to go into why I feel the way I do. But I work towards this goal every day and as I mentioned above, tomorrow is another day for me to start over and attempt to redeem myself.

3) "curb my language"...zero f**king progress made on this goal :)

4) "take violin lessons"...thanks to Dixie I was given some basic tips and techniques for playing the violin and, if I do say so myself, I think I'm getting pretty good at it. Of course, my seven year old nephew could still play circles around me, but as long as I can match him note for note in "Aunt Rhody", I'll be happy. Nic, you'll be happy to know that I am currently learning the Titanic theme song by ear.

5) "become more patient"...I need some outside help on this one. Lately it seems like my anger-o-meter goes from zero to one hundred in half a second and even though I know that it is small stuff that I'm getting angry over, it does not help to lessen the intensity of the emotion. Mike has jokingly suggested that I should take up smoking weed to become more mellow. Some days, I wish I had easy access to it because it would sure make the day flow more smoothly.

6) "have a baby"...well, those of you that are in my "circle of trust" (think Meet the Parents) already know what steps have been taken towards accomplishing this goal. After our day in Saskatoon yesterday, it appears like the road to this goal just got a little bit longer, a little bit bumpier and a little tougher to navigate. But I've always been great at reading maps so I have faith that Mike and I will find our way through and that no matter what road we choose, there will be a little one there waiting for us. And if I type anymore, I just might start crying again so if somebody could tell a fart joke so I can laugh, that would be really great. :)