My poor little girl is sick and I feel so bad for her. We were at the doctor yesterday morning for her six week check-up and everything was fine. By the middle of the afternoon, Katelyn was sleeping way more than usual (she would wake up for 15-20 minutes at a time and then crash for a couple of hours). During the early evening, she was fussing and grunting like she was constipated. We originally thought maybe the formula switch was wreaking havoc on her tummy (we had to buy concentrate formula after the entire city ran out of powder). But constipation wouldn't bring about a fever.
Katelyn whimpered and wept her way through the night. She ate a little bit and promptly threw it back up. It was off to the doctor today where he confirmed she has the stomach flu. A diet of strictly Pedialyte for the next 24 hours was ordered, along with Infant Tylenol and Advil. We dosed her up this afternoon and the whimpering has finally subsided and she is sound asleep.
I hated hated hated seeing her like that and not being able to take away her aches and pains. I have a feeling this won't be the only time in motherhood when I will feel this way :-)
Yes. I remember those first feelings of seeing your child in pain and it hurting right to the gut. I THINK it gets easier. Doesn't necessarily "feel" any easier, but you get used to it...
ReplyDeleteHope she gets feeling better soon. Luke seems to have a bit of a stomach bug at the moment. He didn't look good at all before bed. We gave him some gravol. I hope he's better for tomorrow. He's supposed to go to Monster Jam as an early birthday present!
Maybe you can help me analyze this...I started feeling guilty that I wasn't reacting strongly enough. I was worried and I was concerned, but I felt like I should have been pacing the floors, wringing my hands, crying and checking her every 30 seconds. Instead, for the most part I was calm (I did shed a few tears). It sucks that I can't just accept the emotions that I feel - I always have to analyze them and criticize myself. Argh.
ReplyDeleteI don't think you need to over-analyze your actual "feelings" about all of it. Your feelings will wax and wane based on so many things. For example, if you were exhausted and hungry when she first showing signs of the sickness maybe you would've panicked more or maybe you would've gotten overwhelmed and frustrated (or does that only happen once kids reach age 2?!). :)
ReplyDeleteWhether or not you think your heart felt sufficiently broken about it all, just look at the care you gave her. You took her to the doctor, spent the money on the Pedialyte and have been doing everything that needs to be done to make her well again. If you didn't do those things, then, yes, judge away.
But those damn feelings... they're so fleeting and frustrating and so different for each one of us. It's probably best just to not worry about them.