Flip Flop

So, after trying reiki, hypnotherapy, yoga and acupuncture, I'm feeling pretty well rested. Reiki was amazing for feeling the energy flow through me. Hypnotherapy was super cool and I will definitely be going back....she gave me some great tips and tricks for dealing with my anxiety. Yoga? I hurt my back in one of the resting poses. It was restorative yoga which is building little nests and relaxing for 15-20 minutes at a time. During the face down pose, I hurt my back. FML. Actually, with each treatment, I've hurt my back. Something about laying flat out does bad things to my lower back.
Acupuncture will continue on a weekly basis. I was worried about the needles but I barely felt them! Luckily, my chiropractor is the one who does my acupuncture so she was able to work on my back immediately after I hurt it :)

So what's the flip flop? Here's the sitch...I am desperate to work. I want a job. THE job. I have two great opportunities coming up and I would take either one. I've been in talks with some other women who deal with mental health issues and are on a variety of meds. We've discussed a lot of stuff and I've now flipped back from wanting to go off all my meds to being comfortable with being blitzed out on them. I'll do whatever I need to do in order to be able to work without anxiety. I haven't put in a full five day work week in YEARS. Or possibly ever. I can't remember.

I'm definitely in a better head space than I was in September when I quit the pen. Last year was a transitional year for us in so many ways and I think that affected more than I realized. Between east meets west medicine and holistic practices, I am confident that I will be at peak performance sooner rather than later.

I wouldn't be me if I didn't change my mind rapidly and repeatedly. Cheers to a new path!

And so it goes...