My Sunshine (Updated)

After initially posting this, I went outside to put Joel on the bus.  On our doorstep was a gift from our neighbour.  Although we've lived next to her for four years, we haven't had much contact with her until earlier this year (due to a bad first impression of her yelling at our moving van because it was partially blocking her driveway).  Her gesture this morning has put a huge smile on my face.


And now I've just realized this means I have to return the gesture which will involve bundling up Katelyn to go get yet another gift (facepalm).

I know that I haven't posted much lately and I also know that when I have, it's been about Katelyn.  I have wanted to post several times over the last week, but the themes of those posts would have been "Bah Humbug" and I don't want to be a Debbie Downer, but I am NOT having a very Merry Christmas.  I don't know what it is...the presents are bought, the tree is decorated, there have been MANY cups of hot chocolate drank (drunken?  drunked? dranken?) but I just cannot get into Christmas mode.  The last two years, I have had "excuses" as to why I wasn't in the mood, but this year?  With my first wee baby experiencing her first Christmas and all I want to do is sleep all day and tell everyone to go suck an egg?  What the H is wrong with me (don't answer that)?

Maybe it's because Grandpa is still in hospital (he's doing better though).

Maybe it's because the get togethers this year are so effed up.  We're missing out on Mike's family's supper because it's being held in Warman this year and it's just too difficult for us to get Joel there for the day/evening.  So, we're spending Christmas Eve alone - just our little family.  Although I am looking forward to attending the Christmas Eve service for the first time in a looooooong time.

Maybe it's because my family's Christmas is going to be so different/small.  With Grandpa in hospital, it means Grandma and my M&D will spend the majority of their time there.  There will only be six of us for turkey supper, instead of the usual fifteen or so.

Maybe it's because I know I go back to work in two weeks.  But it's only two days a week and I'm actually looking forward to getting out of the house more.

So, like I said, I don't know what it is.  But I do know two things - I don't like it and Katelyn continues to be my little ray of sunshine amidst these shit clouds hanging over my head.  And I really, really thank God for that because I can't imagine what my life would be without her.

A fun little night for Katelyn and I - she was literally choking and, after smacking her on the back as hard as I could, she proceeded to projectile vomit all over the living room.  She puked on her hands and then flung them in the air.  Good times.

Like every good mother, I took a pic of Katelyn covered in her puke BEFORE I cleaned her up.  Please take note that the kid is still smiling, even after having cleared out her intestinal tract.  She just never stops.

All cleaned up and ready to eat again!!

We bought this "Dora car" off our neighbour and Katelyn can't get enough of it!  When did she get big enough to sit on one of these?!? (Yes, I woke her up from her nap to play on it, hence the bed head).

Dear Rolo hot chocolate with marshmallows, whipped cream and chocolate sauce: I love you.  That is all.

So, am I looking forward to anything at all? I am. I can't wait to watch Katelyn open her presents, even if she'll be more interested in the paper than the gift itself. I'm looking forward to a week off from Joel. As much as I love him, he is a LOT of work and these breaks are few and far between. I'm looking forward to New Year's Eve, where hopefully our friends can gather at our house for good food, some drinkie-poos and lots of laughs

Merry Christmas everyone...wishing you all a safe and happy holiday!